There has been silence here on my blog as a deep process has been unfolding. My attention has been elsewhere. I am going to Mexico in January, some of you may know this, but I left it there. Today I want to share more. Many folks may perceive me as an outgoing, talkative person. I can be. Yet honestly I am a pretty private person. Few people know me beyond my "identifications", ones showing I love animals, travel, rural life, ackowledge my political ideas or the commitment to Montessor education that brought me here. Some know my spiritual lifepath guides me. In WV, I have kept a pretty low profile, though attempting over the last couple of years to promote my WisdomWays business, starting up my blog on maraiwise.com and by being increasingly open about "who I am". Yet I keep my own counsel most often and, yes, I am introverted.
I am going to Mexico, and I am choosing to stay. We are selling the farm, though it is not yet listed, and the good man I married 20 years ago and I are choosing to be apart. I am encouraging him to come stay with me for chunks of time, and I intend to return annually to both coasts to see the people I love and will miss deeply. No need to go into the complications of life and relationship. We all know them. This is a huge and challenging transition for both of us. Emotions surface, though our love and care for one another continues to see us through.
I look forward to a new life, in a different culture, with its own beauty, sensibilities, and pace... one without extreme temperatures. I strive for simplicity and meaning, and will let my sense of wonder and curiosity lead the way. The lesson of letting go, releasing, and shedding, both in the 3D everyday world and also on a deeper spiritual level is very real right now. Rick is, and always has been, a man of these Appalachian mountains. His family in Virginia is, and always has been, his center of the universe. Change is not something he has ever sought. I am the polarity. I am fascinated with what can be learned and seen around the corner, and seek new experiences to grow and learn more about the world, myself. My family is all over the country. Though we love one another, we are all very independent. I was encouraged by my parents (and did the same for my children) to strike out and see what was over the next hill.
The years we have lived on this beautiful piece of ground, and all the work, fun, blood, sweet, tears, and laughter will live forever in my heart. Because we chose to commit to this life together for two decades, yes, it is hard to walk away from, but it has been coming for awhile. For me, this change is part of embracing my elderhood in ways that feel good to my body and mind, and following what my "knowing" tells me is best, rather than putting my needs behind the desires others may hold for me. As women, we are apt to do so, just because of who we are.
Greenbrier county, thank you for the rich life you have provided. The people, mountains, rivers, wildlife, the peace of it all, I carry within my heart. Deep gratitude to so many and so much for being part of my West Virginia adventure. I will be here til early January, intending between the packing up and work to sell this magickal spot, to fully enjoy all the life here has to offer. And I will keep writing.
